March 6th

So I keep missing days and I am sorry but I think it will possibly be a pattern for the future.
I have good news though, I finally got to go to a full three hours of church. The first time in a month. It felt good, I was inspired and uplifted. Whoopie!
I still feel slightly anti social and it doesn't help that half the time I am by myself....though I kinda like it by myself because then I don't have to deal with stupid people. OH the positives and negatives of the social scene.

Oh funny story, yesterday after work we were standing waiting for our ride. It was me and Michelle, the girl I have been working with for the past month, and two girls that just started and they are both from china. Michelle this white shirt on that is totally see through. One remarked to Michelle that 'her shirt is too sexy' the other smiled and said 'yeah, it is transparent' they both laughed amongst themselves, I think more for the fact that they were able to communicate what they were saying. Michelle just smiled and said 'there is nothing wrong with that.' I held my tongue, I already that night have been accused of going to heaven and everyone else going to hell. I really want to tell her that it isn't okay and that she is setting herself up to be nothing but an object for sleazy men to look out, no better than a hooker on the street. But of course I didn't say that because that would just make for awkward conversation and probably lose the two poor Chinese girls trying to grasp the English language.

Oh how fun is life, even though I feel like all I want to do at this moment is return home and quite this dead end job, and start illustrating. But I will endure through it, just like all the difficult things I got to go through in life and in truth, I really don't have such a bad situation. It could be a lot worse, I am just frustrated and tired because of last night. I had to close and they left me by myself and I felt like I was screwing up everyhing and I had no help from anyone and I kept hitting road block and and and I need to calm down.

I am going to bed again