March 22-28th

So My family cam into town and we all went to the parks here and it was a blast, we woke up in the early in the morning, spent all day in the parks and came home to go to bed quite exhausted. The first part of the week we had energy at night to play games but by the end of the week we cam home and fell in bed. It was so fun and I really am going to miss the little ones and my siblings. But now it is time to get back to work. I might go into more detail about the week later... more then likely not cause right now I got to go. After a long week I need to go to work to pay for it.

March 18th

Happy St Patrick's Day, a day late but it still works

I forgot about the holiday completely too, until I got to work and someone had brought green cupcakes. hehe whoops.
Today was stressful like no other mainly because I was closing again and that meant stress and me swearing in french. I was alone and my poor sick manager had to deal with my ignorance and stupidity. I was of course late but I got a ride home where I got to get to know my manager a little more. That part was actually good, I learned a bit about him and how he had a terrible 1st wife that was Mormon. To me she sounded psychotic but at the same time I knew where she was coming from because I am from that same culture. I know what she was trying to do but I also have seen the other side and I realize (whether this just means I will have a nice place in the lower kingdom) that we don't need to follow to the T some of the cultural rules put on us as members.

I am not saying that going to church is something we can do only 50% of the time. No, you need to go to church and follow the Commandments and uphold the covenants that we have taken. What I am talking about is that idea of being married right outside of high school, or being really good at family history. I hate the idea of 'flirt to convert' or 'he will change for me' both are very selfish but are taken up by many girls at the BYU universities. Especially those looking for their MRS degrees. I am finally out of that overpowering culture and now more then ever I am seeing the direct disaster that it is.

I guess you can say I am in a bad mood right now, mainly because of the stress I had to endure and do it with a Disney attitude. I accomplished it but without the grace that I desired. I don't understand what is going on, I have been here two months and I wish that I felt more at home but I haven't felt at home in a place since I left home in 2004. I also have this evil feeling of inadequacy, I feel with all the experience in my life and all the situations I have been in wouldn't I be better prepared for life? But I have the answers already and I don't need a lecture from anyone, so don't worry by tomorrow I will be feeling better and will probably forget everything I just wrote. If anything this is just another de-stresser along with the fudge pop I am eating.

I hope everyone is happy and healthy and hopefully in a better mood, congrats to all that have life changing events going on in their life and good luck adjusting to them.

March 14th

I have decided I hate tinkerbell, so much.

Allow me to explain myself, I first developed a general dislike of her character when I saw peter pan. She was not a very nice person. Then I read the book and she swears like no other. But what happened today brought me to total hatred of the character.

Earlier in the day we had a class on customer service and I was a little pumped to do my best and make someones day magical. And so far it was going well. Until I met the form of Tinkerbell though larger and older and as if she had gone to seed. I don't know why this lady reminded me of that character but I should have took it like a bad omen. I helped the lady and her family and everything was going quite well until check out. Tinkerbell gave me a card that wasn't signed. It is the law to ask for ID if the card isn't signed, mainly to protect from fraudulent charges. So I proceed to ask for an id, and she says she has none but she has her room key card with her name on it. I told her that I need a photo ID. SO, she begins to get huffy and has a slight tear in her eye communicating that she has been embarrassed. I explained the law to her but she snaps and tells me to just forget it and she stepped out of line to wait for her parents who are behind her. I could totally tell that she felt like she was embarrassed by me and she takes on this whole whoa is me attitude. I then start ringing up her parents items and then ask for the total and they as well have an unsigned card. So like the good little retail person I am I ask for ID. The mom who was paying of course didn't have Id and the dad had to come up and pay because he at least had his id. Tinkerbell who now was standing next to me attacked. She said that I was ridiculous and that if I was working for her she would fire me because I was losing sales. After that I tuned her out, stuck everything in a bag; thanked them graciously and sent them on their merry way. My manager had been next to me the whole time and after the guest left she told me that I had handled the situation very well and told me good job. So I at least was in the right.

Therefore I hate Tinkerbell, the brat that she is and the personification of that horrible immature woman. It was fun though when I came home and I shared this story with my roommate, she told me about all the evil soulless guests that come through her resort as well. hehee

March 9th

I found a toad and I played with it and it made me happy... I hope I don't due of poison.
I didn't go to the parks nor did I go to anything major today. I stayed home and watched movies and worked on an illustration that I have to finish tomorrow. I was planning on going to watch the fireworks from the polynesian resort but it started raining. But I also watched a bunch of films and accidentalyy left my flash drive at the library. Because I worked at a library and I know how many jump drives we find each day I have a folder on my jump that says : IF FOUND!!! So the lady was able to call me and I got it without any problems.
I realized yesterday how much I miss working at the library. I really want to go back and work there. Maybe someday I will go back

March 8th

I finally saw wicked and I was pleasently surprised. I guess I should start at the beginning.

I went to downtown disney, spent more money then I should on food and then came home to prepare for this evening. I don't know about you guys but anytime I have been anticipating something for so long there always something that stops me from obtaining that thing that I want. For example, tonight. I have been waiting to see this musical since I was in highschool. I still remember my friend Rachel showing me the soundtrack. So this evening I was on time and waiting to get loaded on the bus and I had this feeling like this was too good to be true that something was bound to happen where we would not get to our destination. I started talking to a fellow participant and voiced my concern. I said that the bus might break down or we might get lost. She just laughed at me and said to basically shut up about it. Well guess what happen. That is right about half way there the bus pulls off to the side and shuts off.

My friend looked at me at this point and said that I jinxed us. But hey nothing a little prayer can help with. And in about fifteen minutes we were back up and running. The play was amazing. It made sense of the soundtrack I have been listening to for the past six years and I am very happy with the ending. I seriously thought she died because that is what happens in the book. I hate the book, LOVE the play. So much better and more magical and better. yeah.

Now it is late, good evening.

March 6th

So I keep missing days and I am sorry but I think it will possibly be a pattern for the future.
I have good news though, I finally got to go to a full three hours of church. The first time in a month. It felt good, I was inspired and uplifted. Whoopie!
I still feel slightly anti social and it doesn't help that half the time I am by myself....though I kinda like it by myself because then I don't have to deal with stupid people. OH the positives and negatives of the social scene.

Oh funny story, yesterday after work we were standing waiting for our ride. It was me and Michelle, the girl I have been working with for the past month, and two girls that just started and they are both from china. Michelle this white shirt on that is totally see through. One remarked to Michelle that 'her shirt is too sexy' the other smiled and said 'yeah, it is transparent' they both laughed amongst themselves, I think more for the fact that they were able to communicate what they were saying. Michelle just smiled and said 'there is nothing wrong with that.' I held my tongue, I already that night have been accused of going to heaven and everyone else going to hell. I really want to tell her that it isn't okay and that she is setting herself up to be nothing but an object for sleazy men to look out, no better than a hooker on the street. But of course I didn't say that because that would just make for awkward conversation and probably lose the two poor Chinese girls trying to grasp the English language.

Oh how fun is life, even though I feel like all I want to do at this moment is return home and quite this dead end job, and start illustrating. But I will endure through it, just like all the difficult things I got to go through in life and in truth, I really don't have such a bad situation. It could be a lot worse, I am just frustrated and tired because of last night. I had to close and they left me by myself and I felt like I was screwing up everyhing and I had no help from anyone and I kept hitting road block and and and I need to calm down.

I am going to bed again

March 4th

Well this was a frustratingly annoying day, or at least it started that way. I went to send off my portfolio to dreamworks, I had everything ready oh but then when I got there the post office's credit card swipy thing was down. So I went to a nearby ATM and even that was down. So basically because of transportation time was over an hour I basically wasted three hours of my life. I was so frustrated and angry I went out and bought candy and then I had to get to work.
I have decided I hate the 'hello, how are you?' greeting. Because you have to lie, you can't tell a guest that you are having a crappy day in response. You must say good or fine because that is the common don't talk to me response. At least it rained today so their vacation was spoiled, bwahaha.
It was kinda nice that it rained because then more people came to the store and I was kept busy the whole time which made the whole day better. So I guess in a round about way things are good for someone else. Now I just have to figure out how me not getting to send off my portfolio good for someone else.
Well ta ta for now

March 2nd -3rd

The last few days have been fun. I had them off so that meant vacation to the parks. I spent both my days at Epcot and this time not by myself. The first time I was with my friend Cherika and the next day I was with my roommate Victoria.
The second day I went to Epcot they were having the flower festival. This will go until I think the end of April so my family will be able to enjoy it too when they come at the end of March. That is if they want to go there.
At work they have been keeping me on stock which is fine because it makes the time fly by. But I kinda miss the interaction I get with the guests. I finally worked with the head of stocking and after a while one of my coworkers came up to me to tell me that Frank (the head stocker) was really impressed with me. He said that Frank was impressed about how I do what he says and I don't ask how to do things after I have been shown. Don't get me wrong, I am a little flattered but I have worked one of these jobs before and my observation is that not a lot of people have a good work ethic. It amazes people all the time that I am willing to work and that when I do things I try my hardest to do it exactly like I have been told. Is this really that hard for other people. What is happening to our society that when you do the minimum people are impressed. Sad really.
I got off early from work so I went grocery shopping and I saved money by going to Disney's Discount store but I spent a bit too much on a gift for someone else. But it was worth it. I just hope that my parents will have room in their luggage for all the stuff I am finding.
hehe, well tomorrow is another day

March 1st

I have discovered something that has been here in Disney World for some time but has gone under my radar because of my fears.
Disney Characters, I'm not sure why but I have discovered that I have a subconscious fear of the masked characters. You don't know who is under that costume. How do you know if the bunny you are hugging is even a boy or a girl? Creepy!

But yesterday, my friend from Efy (Cherika) wanted to actually wait in line with squealing and crying little children to meet the face characters. As we waited in line I could feel my apprehension growing. I thought up methods of escape but how could I get away with all the little ones staring me down and my friend's excitement of getting her own autograph book signed.

The first character was The fairy Godmother from Cinderella, and I was actually okay with that, it was just an old lady in a shiny costume. Nothing frightening about that. We got our picture taken then before I knew it, Cherika spotted the two step sisters and step mom from the same movie. I went through baby steps and got in line. Surprisingly the characters were funny, and played the part of the characters nicely. I still didn't know what to do or say for that matter. I think it all comes down to your parents teaching you never to talk to strangers.

My mind won't release me from that idea that these characters are different people then what they are showing. But it is fun to watch them interact with the kids and it is very clever of what they come up with to say. We met Mulan, for example, and she asked if we had any warriors with us but we responded that they were MIA, she told us that we should be proud that we are capable of being on our own, that we can take it. The when we met Snow White she commented on how sunburnt Cherika was. Very clever.

So I will relent and give them props for being good actors but I don't think I will ever get over my aversion to them.